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"SOMETIMES, LOSING A PET IS MORE PAINFUL THAN LOSING A HUMAN BECAUSE IN THE CASE OF PET, YOU WERE NOT PRETENDING TO LOVE THEM."

I do. I really do. 

It was one night. We were watching television together, with my twin sisters. Abah and mak had go to sleep. so early, as usual. 

that night, my rambut still basah lagi. baru lepas mandi, baru lepas solat isyak. seharian berjalan menonton wayang bersama makcik. square one jek. tak jauh mana. layan movie istanbul aku datang. quietly nice movie tu. sebab ada artist ! fall in love kejap dengan watak haris. haha. sebab dalam movie tu dia pandai melukis. little crazy.

TENENENENE xD MAMAT SENI ITU, DIAAAAA :D

off about that. biasalah, Botet. keluar pagi, malam baru balik. lepastu bising mintak makan. and macam biasa jugak. around pukul 10 11 macamtu Botet balik rumah. mintak makan. alang-2 ada ikan goreng tu, campur gaul dengan nasi. lepastu bagi dia makan.

dan macam biasa jugak, botet lepas makan nak keluar rumah balik. so, dia duduk depan pintu dan mengeow kuat-2. bagaikan menjerit kepadaku menyuruh bukak pintu nak keluar. and then, aku pun bukak pintu, tetbe kat depan pintu ada kucing lain ! (Jujo) apalagi, Botet terus terkam Jujo dan berlakulah pergaduhan yang besar jugaklah.

aku menjerit meminta tolong. haha. lepastu, capailah apa-2 yg ada kat situ, nak pukul Botet sebab cari gaduh. jantan mana boleh jumpa jantan weyy !

actually, botet memang ganas. terlampau sangat emotional. garang habisan. spoilt. ngengade. semua yang negatif ade kott. pemalas. social. banyak beranakkan kucing betina lain. biasa lah. JANTAN kan. 

ok sambung, time aku nak meleraikan pergaduhan antara mereka itulah, aku diterkam. tangan kiri dibaham. meninggalkan luka yg sangat ketara. calar balar kott tangan. haha. ini memang terbaik. apalagi, jerit menangislah aku. nasib baik rumah memang sedia first aid. haha. tsk tsk tsk :'( gigi botet yg tajam telah menggigit tangan aku, ada dapat 3 lubang kau ! tangan terus tak boleh gerak 3 hari.

mak and abah yang tengah tidur terbangun, berlari ke dapur. tenenenene. lepastu, Botet dicerca, dimarah, aku jugak yang kena ==' buat haru je botet. 

"dah lepas ni, kalau botet balik lagi, memang mak buang terus !"

dan sebenarnya, botet memang dah pernah terkam aku dengan abang. haha. calar balar kot tangan. peduli apa kan. kalau hati dah sayang, dia bagi luka tangan pun tetap sayang kan ? nama pun sayang, buta segala-galanya. 

lagipun, dah bela botet 5 tahun. sejak dia baby. dah memang sayang sangatlah tu. sayang kan. nama pun sayang. memang sayang lah. nama botet memang selalu dijaja kemana sahaja. tenenene :D 

masuk hari kedua, aku dengan tangan yang masih lagi terasa bisa. just sapu antiseptic cream dengan cuci luka pakai dettol je. chill la, hari-2 aku peluk cium kena cakar dengan kucing elok je. nikmat yang Allah bagi :D Alhamdullillah. maybe Dia nak suruh aku jadi mak kucing kot. bukan senang nak jumpa orang yang sayang kucing macam aku ni. aku elok je kott. kat asrama tu, hari-2 aku cakap dengan kucing. 

lagi baik cium kucing jantan daripada berkawan dengan mana-2 jantan kan ? tralala ~ 

malam kedua aku injured tu, Botet balik. aku suruh amir bagi makan. amir pun bagi. kepala ikan bilis yang mak simpan memang khas nak bagi kucing makan. okay, sebenarnya aku yang nak simpan. ye la kan, kitorang ni bukan mampu nak bagi makan kucing mewah-2 macam dalam tv tu. bagi makan hasil sisa makanan kitorang jek. kucing kampung ni mana banyak bunyik. makan jek apa yang ada depan mata. 

time tu lah, abah suruh amir kurung botet tutup dengan bakul baju. aku yang sedang baring depan tv rasalah jugak sayu. tapi baik senyap jek. tangan tengah sakit woooo. lepastu abah amek guni ! naaa ~ abah amek botet, masuk dalam guni, lepastu masuk but, start engine kete. lepastu buang kat mana tataw. =='

tsk tsk tsk :'( paling sedih dengar botet mengoew, dalam guni tu. oh no ! aku masuk bilik, dan menangis, macam ape ==' jadah. adalah lebih kurang 30 minutes crying. tak la lama mana kan. mata bengkak. no one kesah. hard feelings. nak menghalang ? haha. tiada kuasa. better to shut up. nobody cares. hemmmmm

dah banyak kali kott botet buat hal. semua kucing jantan takut dengan dia, gila kuasa. gengster jalanan. taiko besar woo. takde geng pulak tu botet. market ade. banyak jek betina dia kat luar sana. entah dah berapa anak dia buat dengan banyak betina. 

GENGSTER JALANAN. CHOW KIT ADA ? HAHA. mata dia. menawan ~ 

haha. itu kucing. bukan manusia. 

and i'm his friend. yes, bestfriend forever ~ 

kini tidak lagi.

and yes, I'm so sad. so sad. forever sad. entahlah. nak disayang lagi kat dia, dah takde, aku bagi kau kek secret recipe, kau bagi aku kek bantat ! gitulah dia punya simile nye kan. haha. KA ajar lah ni ~

emm. sekarang dapat kucing baru. nama dia Jujo. tapi dia still tak taw pun nama dia Jujo. aku panggil buat pekak jek. dah la datang rumah aku tak dijemput. tetibe jek. ye la, kucing datang kan. buat rumah kau macam rumah sendiri pulak tu. haha. sweet la dia, bulu lembut. euwww, lagi handsome dan smart drpd Botet. 

JUJO.

nama Jujo ? nenek yang kasik. sebab apa ntah. dia jujur kot ? tak kesah lah apa-2. yang penting nama tu COMEL :D

emm. senangnya dapat pengganti. haha. luka fizikal tak baik lagi, luka mental sat lagi elok la kott. yang penting, happy.

p/s  : teringat Botet, confirm leleh. sangatlah.

BOTET. JUST MEMORY.

p/s : aku rindu kengkawan aku. ws.

I LOVE HIM ♥

My mind was full of anxiety from the moment I arrive here. Where is he? He seems like nowhere to be seen and nowhere to be heard. Being in a total different place and far away from people I recognize just make my heart beats faster. I am afraid if I ever lose my self control in any moment. Well, you cannot imagine how dreadful I feel, waiting for the person who possibly will not showed up and how excruciating I might feel if he will not present.

Just after I start my car engine on, there’s a familiar figure reflected through the side mirror. I think I know him well, but I just cannot remember the memories related to him. My imagination, I suppose. It possibly cannot be him in this area. But what if it’s really him? The door is opened without any doubt to prove that I am not hallucinating.

“Hello, mister? Hello?” My words are drowned with the sound of the vehicles passing by. He barely hears me and takes a step to turn. It is him. It is really him. I can feel my face smiling without any force to do so-well, most probably because he is smiling too.

He is outstandingly good-looking and stunning as ever. The straight, high cheekbones and the golden-topaz brown eyes make his charm towards people stronger than I remember. I do remember that people would be sort of melt even if he accidentally stared or looked into their eyes. I do not know how tall to say he is, but my head is just about the shoulder of his. The hair that used to be longer and made his eyes barely seen is now appears to be in a straight perfect hair cut.

He invites me for a cup of tea towards the nearest café we can find. He is totally surprise with my presence and this meeting after ten years of disconnection. Working as an engineer in a well-known company makes me feel happy for the wish he keeps has finally come true. Things have changed a pretty much a lot yet there are certain things that are just the same as ever.

I remember our olden times together. The hardships, the tears, the depression are still fresh in my mind like it was just yesterday. I remember when he consoles me when I keep thinking that I am losing myself, too afraid of the real, excruciating world outside of mine. I remember when we both have to make sacrifice for our own greater good when we both need to do a terribly unexpected twist in our lives.

" I LOVE HIM."

I can see that he is more matured during our teen’s time. He has changed so much that I think I barely know him as he is now. The time, well has really do an outstanding job to himself until I realize that somehow, we need to start all of this over again. The life that he lives now makes me feel envious towards what he gets. He is more determined and has a higher self confidence as well as not easily being fooled with what he has had now. The knowledge, either formal or non-formal makes myself cannot find a suitable word to deny his opinions and thoughts.

He is now more talkative than I am. I always ‘rule’ any conversation but it is in contrast then. I am a good listener (I know) but the way he speaks is very convincing and I do not have any choice apart of giving a nod or saying that he is just right.

p/s : kertas bersepah-sepah jumpa tepi tangga ada cerita simpan daripada form 1, menarik hati, cerita penuh misteri tiada pengakhiran. yes, hanya menulis semula. tidak tahu tulisan siapa. lala-nothing. mysterious. 

"I LOVE IT " mata dia. auwwww ♥

Identity.

Assalamualaikum, nice meeting you all.

thanks for reading, but if not. well, I'm no one to be the one that you MUST read. 

well, that was so cute I think that I ever seen. haha :)

it's a worth, just take a step to read some tazkirah or article from the web iluvislam. but, this is what finally I found.

a cat mendongak. 

haha.

the lightning quietly nice. full of inspiration. such a peace. subhanallah :')

beauty of art. sebab tu senang jatuh hati dengan mamat seni. seni tiada sempadan kan ? walaupun diri ni buta seni, but at least tawlah nak bezakan yang mana cantik, yang mana tak, yang mana handsome, yang mana tak. eh eh eh ? 

oh ya, gambar cat bertuah tu dah tukar jadi twitcon. alolo sweetnye :) nak buat camane kan, dah sweet sangat ! but please, semua kucing memang comel okay. jangan pertikaikan. 

LOL xD 

that's all. btw, broken english asalkan faham. still on the classes. am no that terror like my mr unpredictable, I'm so gonna jealous kalau dia update status using English. 

bla 3x. wassalam :) 

   

 

 

 

google kejap. eheh :) comel kan gambar tu ? haha xD 

3.28 AM

8th November 2012

alone in the dark room. 

:) Happy Birthday ex-KP 2010 , Ahmad Ibrahim Zakaria. May your life be bless, by HIM. Ameen.

nostalgia bercerita : bertukar-tukar hadiah :)

"the time that we share everything together. our laugh. our smile. our story. haha. currently miss them at all :') Ya Allah, Kau jagakan mereka untuk aku, aminn."

Assalamualaikum ... 

ehh, boringnya duduk rumah. melihat teman-2 sayang sekalian sakan upload gambar kita semua kat facebook tuh. wewitt. eh eh eh. sukehati kite la nak tulis blog ni kannn =='


homboiii. kemain gedikk ayat ? at least bahasa still ada apa. tengok, ayat penuh kan ? 


wahhh ! rindu classmate xD okay, bawak story pulak dahh. hikhik >,< mula-2 cengggini :)))

decide dulu nak tukar-2 hadiah dengan budak kelas hadiah berapa harga. hemm. before that cabut nama. lelaki dapat nama perempuan, perempuan dapat nama lelaki. ohh bahagia. bahagia la pulakk. at first memang tolak awal-2. sebab takut student lelaki salah pilih hadiah ! lepastu tak puas hati. lepastu ... lepastu.. ok stop.

dah pening kepala nak pilih apa. haha xD mana tahu taste lelaki ni gaya camane.  lagi la bila dapat nama orang yang. yang. yang. alahai ~ tak pernah bercakap even sekelas. maybe pernah sekali dua. tapi tak pernah untuk kali ketiga.

time tu memang pakat dah bising kat grup kelas. tralala ~ 

daripada biarkan bebudak ni beli macam-2. tu yang tempah dulu mintak duit jek. hikhik >,<

saje nak making gempak sepah-2. haha xD 

emm. don't mean it at all. 

dan, time kat genting kat satu kedai cenderahati tu... 

"Hafiq, sini kejap." dia toleh. muka macam dah pelik.
"Kau pilih la mana-mana spec yang kau nak kat sini. nanti aku bayar."
"oh, kau dapat nama aku ke ?" muka smile teruja. 
"dah pilih nanti bagi aku."

ada la around 10 minutes kat dalam kedai tu. pusing-2 jalan-2 tengok barang. emm. semua tak berkenan. am not materialistic at all btw. sebab tu tengok semua barang kat situ not perfect at all. lalala ~ eh, sukehati la nak kata apa.

"Fatin, nah." toleh belakang. dia.
"Dah ?" sambut spec tu. "nice then ~" dia smile.

dan ketika bertukar hadiah dalam bus ~ tadaaaa :) 

HAFIQ HAFIZI. He choose himself. tralala ~ yang penting. sama-2 happy !

and I'd got a hand watch by, Hakim Mansor. naaa ~ red colour, nice then. officially happy. pic ? takde lah pulak. tapi orgnye ada la ~ ahaha xD

naaaa. HAKIM MANSOR in green :) thanks btw ~

naaa ~ kan best kalau Hakim bagi rupa cenggini. ahaha xD 

the end. with that, I thank you :)

wassalam. 

TRIP-MEREPEK-sekolah ?

“Anything else you’d like to order ?”

Benz dan Addin serentak memandang pelayan yang tercegat di tepi meja. Addin baru perasan tehnya dah habis. Benz baru perasan ini dah kali ketiga pelayan itu meminta tambahan pesanan. Addin merenung kosong. “Potassium cyanide, please.”

Mata pelayan itu bulat.

“Make it two.” automatic Benz menyambung.

Kening anak muda itu terangkat. “Excuse me, but we have none of that on that menu… “ Dia menjawab teragak-agak. “At least today.”

Benz baru perasan dia bercakap ikut sedap mulut. “Err, what did we order?”

“Potassium cyanide ?” pelayan itu juga menjawab teragak-agak.

Addin baru tersedar. Eh ! Aku sebut tu ke tadi ? Benz membetulkan letak duduknya. Waras ke tidak Head Girl ni ? Nak bunuh diri ?

“I’ll have coffee then.” Benz senyum automatic pada pelayan yang muka dah beriak pelik tu.

Addin turut menarik senyum automatic kepada pelayan itu. “Make it two.”

dalam cable car :)

Assalamualaikum semua :)

Heaven ~ cuti sekolah untuk form 3 dah start ! emmm, duduk rumah sunyi boring membunuh jugak. Tapi kalau duduk sekolah pun menganggur jugak. Betul la lepas ni nak kena buat balik tuition golden hours bla-3 24 hours bagi pecah kepala. Tak pun bagi la something that need to be done sepanjang cuti sekolah yang agak kosong ni.

Pergi memancing ? Batu Pahat dah nak banjir dah tu. Sat lagi maii la ayak tu semua pi Sri Medan ni.. haila ~ teringat dulu rumah ni banjir, terperangkap dalam rumah 3 hari, lepastu boring tataw nak buat apa. Alahai ~ kelakarnya ! kay kay, not that funny.

Chemist, psychics, biology, addmath, syariah, quran sunnah. Bla-2 something. Boring ~ kalau nak suruh mak jadi cikgu dalam rumah ni, mak ajar ekonomi asas, perdagangan dengan akaun adalah. Semuanya di luar bidang. Of course la tahun depan take science. Lalala ~ naaa, abang kat ada ? boleh rasanya nak suruh ajar chemist. Phew ~ nanti along dgn angah tu balik, boleh la ajar Biology dengan English. Tu pun kalau agak-2 boleh jalan la tu semua. Hikhik >,<

Emm, haritu kelas 3 Mujahid 2012 ada buat lawatan kan ? pergi mana ? Genting jek. Not to show off, but, that’s really an enjoyment moment of us la. Kalau orang selalu cakap kitorang ni schema, bla-2. Senyap macam kubur dalam kelas. Wrong. Totally wrong. Haha. Kalau dah naik bendalah yang pusing-2 terbalik-balik kat genting tu, istilah senyap dan schema hilang betul. Manusia nilah yang jerit paling kuat. Yelakan, orang keliling tak kesah dah… 

muka happy kan ? happy ! gila happy ! the girls :)))

the boys... hero-hero 3 mujahid. bluekk . puih puihh.. time ni la ~~

in front of WISMA BELIA lalala ~ something. mana satu Fatin ? hikhik >,<

“BEST GILA !!”

Terasa segala bebanan hilang dah.. ni pulak, cikgu cakap balik rumah doa banyak-2. Pemeriksa dah start tanda kertas ! waaarrghhh ! back to schema mode la macam ni. Omaa ==’ baru perasan, dah lama jugak tak buat solat hajat, quran.. surah-2 yang slalu baca setiap malam before tidur. Manusia memang mudah lupa kalau dah senang kan ?

Here are some picture of us :) 

first sight. first step. cable car ;)

Sunway Pyramid with Ice skate :) lala- nothing. see ? omma ==' anak siapa la yg jatuh tu yek ? lalala ~ kesah ape. 

twitter. alang-2 tu follow lah ye ;p

partner segala partner. KHAIRUL NISA BT HAMDAN. yes, we share the same name of our daddy :) wewitt.that faking smile ! 

letih la nak cerita panjang-2 banyak. erghhh ! okay, keesokan harinya, ke sekolah. jamuan prefect. lalala ~ 

akak cun pengawas 1 2 3 4 5. eh ? akak cun pengawas lagi sorang mana ? atotototo :))

okbye !

eh eh eh.. esok SPM ! lalala ~ maahadian f5 2012. all the best ! mesti korang takut kan ? eh tak, mesti korang sekarang dah tidur kan ? hikhik >,< ok, goodluck. 

wassalam :)